Discovering my life~

I first stepped into this year shaking, trembling of the fear for PMR. Part of them, with a slight of excitement, I have been carried through this whole year by God's blessing and mercy.

January, I was being adapted to these new so called "Form 3 -enviroment". I was looking for clubs for me to join. Also, the church duties are always keep my schedule full without fail. At the first, every Friday is the Boys' Brigade's band practise time...I would join the practise as I'd committed. As for Sat, BB meeting. NO tuition, or else my body could tear apart into 10^n parts...==

Felt into Feb without knowing and the trial examinations are keep marching forward to me. So, advice from me, BRACE YOURSELVES! Be prepared for the projects! HIstory, Science,KH, BM, BI...Arh! Better finish them in 3 months time. Or else...you would probably be and non-stop working machine. By that moment, I wasn't preparing anything for PMR yet. Why? I guess I wasn't in the study mood.

March! What I'd done during that period, I don't really remember...Oh yea! The school project were really driving me CRAZY!! This is also the month I joined the BOSL(Board of Student Librarian). Much more crazy I was because there were too much for me to memorise! All the committee and EXCOs and the pledge! What a "pleasure"!

Now I give you the April...Same...Projects, studies, BB, church! Whoooooo, got rid of them...By God's help.

May...lecturer came to school to give us lecture about some knowledge about BM.

The same things keep repeated untill PMR came...Sat for PMR...AND DONE!

The rest of the year I was just playing around, try to relax myself anf figuring out what was my plan for this year...

All these moments I am keep moving my body aroung my church, too many events for me to involve in. Also, learning PS CS4 took part of my time away, even though...I had learnt nothing. It's too complicated! Too many functions and features that tie notes over my brain...>.<

Alright...Thinking about Christmas this holy birthday of J.C...I truely felt sorry. All these years, people are celebrating Christmas globally without knowing why we celebrate it. They thought Santa Claus is the main character of the Christmas. But is it so? Christmas is all about the birth of our Lord, J.C! Without His birth to this earth, we could not gain the eternal salvation! Why are you guys(well, not all of you...)keep thinking that santa with the deers would please you by giving you guys presents? Well, tu be honest, I think Santa is to be created for CASH. Sad, this is the world means...But, to be a positive-thinking person...J.C is the best!

Wow, it had been a log while since the last post I have not touch my "bloggie". However, I can't see a single speck of dust! Awesome isn't it? Sweat... Well, you see, my life is really struggling. Not to say it's very very serious, but it's enough for me to be concern about.

Recently, I feel that I am getting bored within my Blue-Life(hope you understand). Things are getting more usual and common. Wonder this is good or bad? In another word, Things are recycling in the same way in my routine. So, what should I do about it? Well, I decided to stop my committment to BB just for a little while and start looking for a whole new journey which i hope to be more meaningful and interesting.

It's astonishing for me to know that water rockets building are quite fun though. As the process were to be hard and challeging, I actually love this kind of feeling. Why? Right, why? I feel that I can learn so many things by putting my heart into it as though I am doing it for God.

Wonder road, where you're heading?
Wonder road, are you going to wonder land?
Wonder road, are you bringing me success?
Wonder road, so be it, God.
Brightness and hope are infront,
run, run, run,
run along the wonder road,
run to the altar,
and you shall meet by the leading of the Lord.

Before giving out my point of views, please note that I am not trying to tease, insult or hurt anyone. I am just shouting it all out from my heart.

As far as I concern, all the mothers on the earth give birth to their children after about 9 months of pregnant. I am pretty sure that parents love their own children more than anyone else. Hence, for the sick of your children, stop argue in front of your children! Nowadays the quality of the teenagers is deterioring, why? One of the factors is that the children live in a family that wars are going on every moment! Argue and criticize each other seem to be act of hurting your children( much more efficient than canning).

Me, as a child of my parents, I do feel hurt when they're arguing( especially during the examinations period). I am always concern about my family. My attention will be destrected even when there tiny crack in between my family members.

Argue acts like an assinate and it kills your children little by little. In the name of Jesus, I chase you out of my house, my enviroment!

God bless...

I actually realised that I've been confronted pretty much conditions, but not yet enough for me to give advise to others. In order to be an experienced person, we can not actually just sitting back and study all the time. In fact, we have to get into the community and get yourselves involve in all the conditions. By involving yourselves, you can actually feel the priceless knowledge, wisdom.


All these years, I am chasing the worthless BB badges or high achievements in everything. Somehow, a massage from nowhere told me that it is possible for you to get the results, but that particular result will not contain any experience, knowledge nor wisdom. The most important fact is that do not aim for the achievements. I'm not saying that all those are bad for us, but they present as a reward for us if we are able to achieve the goal.



On the other hand, I think that I have no worries although there still so much for me to worry about! I have peace in spiritual...Thinking that I'm growing up...so with others...Is my routine going to change? Or me is the one who changes others? Wondering~What am I suppose to target after PMR besides SPM? Are there somekind of challenges waiting for me? Definitely yes!

It's all depends on God's plan...Just obey...

Being a teenager that need to struggle in such a messy world...I'm changing...transforming...being adapted to this world...

Feeling weird...Maybe this is part of living, that is to find the true me...

Wow, it's suprising to know that I'm now still having time to post a blog as though I have no examinations around! Get off from the study table makes me feel so good! Yes Lord, bless me in my life...Give me wisdom...

Recently, I just can't believe that I've started to style my hair! All these years, I've been a plain boy with nothing! A nobody! Now, I'm starting to build up my self-esteem as holistic.

Knowing that people do get challenges, I might be hit down...Hope God can enchance and boost up my intell for anything upcoming.

Grow wings, so that you can fly,
Be brave, so that I can protect people I love,
Grow eyes, so that you can see justise,
Be grateful, so that I get more blessings,
Grow up, so that we confront them with all we have!

A little messy for this post, just try to link the point, like summary. This post is somekind of practise.

Today, woke up at 6 a.m.

Brushed teeth...breakfast...went school...study...

1:50 p.m....school over...went to lunch in canteen...

2:30p.m...went to library for AGM...That was when the happpiness and suffering started...


Suffering parts:

-the AGM only started at 3.05p.m.( I sat there for 30mins for nothing!)

-AGM ended at 7p.m...(Give me some oxygen man!)

-Can't wear blue shirt yet! (NO!! I didn't expect to be this answer!)

-the AGM was quite bored...(All those EXCOs' and CLs' reports were so long!)

-I can't even find a blazer! (Cheap and can last till I reach Form 5)



Happinness parts:

-Grats, Wong Soon Khen. The next CHAIRMAN of BOSL!

-Finally...senior are retired...We are now got some authority...

-Today I don't have to duty...YEY! ^^



Conclusion:

-Praise the Lord for everything he gave me, such as today's memories...

-Prepare for the coming events...

-Pray for tougher mind...

-Pray for the Opening Dance for my church's anniversary...




Good Night........ Monday
8.35 p.m.

I must repost this post. All the pics are sponsored by Bryan Cho..who was once a fatty, and now a handsome boy...

~EXAMS~

Greetings everyone...

For your info(those who are studying in MBSSKL), our school is having two trial exminations.

The first trial test is under wilayah state, whick marks will not be taken for any purpose. This exam will be held on 10th August to 17th August along with 8 subjects. (PMR subjects).

On the other hand, the 2nd exam is under MBSSKL state. According to Mrs Ng, this is utmost important for our future class in Form 4. 13 subjects will be included in this exam. This exam will start on September.

Study hard so that we DIE HARD in examinations

Exam, this word seems to be a tough word for me to consider about. I can't think much of exam now but stress and pressure are inhabit in my body holistically.

Why?

I got results with "dark colors" for the past few exams. Eventually, I'm afraid of the failure for my upcoming exams.

Not much time for us to concentrate in all the subjects. So, we need to be smart enough to tackle the main points of all the subjects.

Friends, once again...Friends are for us to take care, to protect and to comfort. They might return the favour to you and they might not. But, do not insult them back so that we can set apart from the others.

Wait...why am I talking about this?

Alright, back the topic...Guys, study hard is inevitable for getting an impress result.

Pray for good results. Pray always...

Time for me to go...All the best ^^ ...

God bless...

Today is really an "eventful" day. Got caught by prefect (Kai Jian) for not wearing tie...which is very innocent. My tie was with Johnny! Haiz...nevermind...I've to do my first detention class( clean the tarace area ) It's my fault afterall, I left my tie in Y.C.

I believe in you, Lord. Although it's a hard day.

Next, I've a headache today which is also annoyed me whole day long. So, what to do? Go back home and rest, replace my librarian duty tomorrow...

I believe in you, Lord. Although it's an unabsorbing day.

回到家以后，立刻贴在椅子上，动不了太多，不然真的是进医院留医（哇，永谦，哪有那么严重啊？！）

感谢主，让我度过了这么挑战的一天。

好了，太久没碰华语的结果真的是不可理喻！这次的华语测试真的考到非常差！所以啊，有时闲着也以定要碰碰华语，不然真的会生锈！ 我想对Tjun Yip说生日快乐。对不起，没法买礼物，图书管理员实在花费太大了。

这一则，我想分享的是。。。。。。。？ 我要分享什么好呢？还是到此为止吧。你们也得给我一些构思啊！

结论：要我用华语写些什么？你们说吧，我尽力去写。同时你们也要帮个忙，纠正我的错误！




谢谢阅读。

Today...during chapel period, Ern Kai's bro came to give us testimony. He said that pride can be divided into 2 parts. First is that to boast our own riches, strength or wahtever to the others. The second one is that self-pitty to get compassion from others and make them comfort us by praising us.

Well, readers, I think you all think I need compassion right? Actually no, I'm fine now. Thanks for your encouraging both from BB friends and school friends.

I think I'm close to the second type of person that has a pride of self-pitty.


So, who am I? The moment I posted the previos post, I didn't expect anyone to visit my blog and say:" Look at it, you do have a good life!" Who am I? For you to concern about? Who am I? For you all to comfort me?
(this pic was taken during Daniel's farewell party)

Praise the Lord for giving me a good environment to live on with my full strength! ^^

Thanks for those who comforted me! May God bless you all!



Who am I Lord? For you to take care of me? For you to give me friends?


I am Tan Yong Qian, THE CHILD OF GOD, AND EVERYONE OF US ARE ALSO HIS BELOVED CHILDREN! BEAR THAT IN MIND! ~Live Well Balanced~

I got this title from my heart, no, it's from God ...

When I was really exhausted, helpless and cry alone at a small corner without anyone notice.

Well, when I'm in that kind of situation, I will think of my noble Lord.

Somebody in my class even called me fanatic! Do you think I'm too fanatic in christianity?

I can't think of anyone that can comfort me when my parents are not aorund...

My brother? Obviously, he hasn't grow up yet...He's still in his puppy love life style( I'm not kind of "dislike" him...just that I expected too much from him)

Why do we live? I've been teased by people all the time.

My height...People used to tease me just because that I'm SHORT...Even my brother do so...with his friends...

They have a lot more to tease...I suppose. So, why should I feel sad about these? God gave me this this size, height for his particullar reasons...

I'm not clever...I'm not a genius...I'm not learning very fast...Why? I don't know...LOL...ask God! But I knew that I am good in arts...Must challenge Jason some times later...

So, those who are still offense or disgust this "We live for God!"...I would like to advice you to stand up again! With strenght and guidance given by God!

Those is me with mum when I was in standard 6. ^^

Time has passed so quickly...

Till I forgot who was I...

These pics from Bryan Cho...Has refresh my memories again...Thanks!

Alright...What does "Heng Dai" means? That's means very good friend that willing to die together...CHOI...LOL^^...In BB, I found that the people who are always beside me are:

1) Johnny Tham {keep "ban" cool}
2) Tjun Yip { I will get kill if not mentioning his name...LOL}
3) Cheng Liang {Can act rasionally, but can't think rasionally}
4) Wei Luek {Can think rasionally, but can't act rasionally}
5) Keng Lum {Since he mentioned my name in his "heng dai" list...LOL}
6) Taw Wei { So called ''drum freak'' ..haha}
7) Jin Zhao {A 'baby' NCO...Don't angry ya...=="'}
8)Andy Yem....^^{ pro badminton player}
9) Cheng Wei {pro in PIANO+ don't ply ply~}
10) last but not least...Shon Yin.........{ I wonder why he calls himself a music freak...}
11)Ultimate last but not least...Calvin...haha^^{ a siao footballer and...so called...Calvin The "Saviour"}
Those who are not mentioned...next time I'll post it...Sorry...Got to go, Bye~

Thx to my mum for buying me this spec...I appreciate that very much...Ha! ^^

Today~

Nothing special~

Only that a person that I've asked to visit my blog replied me~Thanks for your comment...You know who you are~

Friends from Tsun Jin listen here...Since you all are so free...How about give more opinion on my blog le~

Praise the Lord for another wonderful day~

Shaun...I don't really get you...For your info, I am not quite friend with the girls around. For my primary school friends, they do not even have a blog. How could I...how can I...haiz...for the GB...hopeless as you can see...MBSSKL? I do not have any contact with any girls...Church's girls? No, I am just have a little touch with them for the anniversary dance practise.

See? No girls in my world...

Sad for me...

Too bad la...

Nevermind, still got BB band and JESUS!!

Praise the Lord!!

Alright, after almost nearly 8 years of wearing the same type of spec...HAHA!! After the body inspection ( including eyes), nurses found that my sight eyes are begin to nosedive. That is why I get a new spec, thanks to my mum also for bought me a cheap and nice spec. Mum, I love you!! With this, people will stop teasing me with the old spec...TEASE FREE! But, I realised something too...I am now more to the world...but not God...No! I can't allow this happen...God, I want to come back to you!!

Blessings.

These days, I realised that something is making me feel uncomfortable. I wonder what it is....Studies? or...BB? or...Librarians? or...Girls? Lord, please give me a hint...Please Lord!! I am now falling down...I don't know which direction I am advancing to...Lord, CATCH ME WHEN I'M FALLING!!

Thanks to Pastor Florence for bringing me to success. Thank you for watching me always...Thanks, really. This day you'll leave us all and go to somewhere else to spread the gospel...May God watches you always.

I am not trying to be show off...Just to let you all know how proud are you when you get so many badges.

My family...during 55th anniversary!!

how sweet...i have

Light blue forever! 3sprit de Corps!

Focus on the most right...Ignore the other two beside me...

Lord...please hold me when I fall...Today...I feel like living for my own~ But then, I helped a blind old man to walk along the LRT station!! I feel proud of myself...Students from other school keep putting their eyes on me~ Thanks God!! I feel so...undefined...AMAZING!!

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